Has it ever happened to you, feeling that someone that you care about and like is not enough for you?. I’m not talking about not good enough like I’m better than him or anything. Maybe the expression “not right” fits better. Is it crazy that I actually want romance?, not that cheesy stupid “romance” that we see on facebook all the time, those couples saying “I love you” when they’ve only been dating for 2 weeks, trying to convince everybody that they are the perfect couple and showing off their relationship with messages like “You are the love of my life, I love you so much baby.. blah BLAH BLAH”. No. I mean that kind of romance that’s unseen. That kind of romance that’s in the little things. Like for example looking at each others eyes for a while without saying anything, kissing on the forehead/nose, holding hands, hugging like you mean it, only saying things like I love you when you really mean it, doing small gestures like buying a chocolate before meeting just because you know how much she/he likes that candy. I want that. I need that. I want someone who doesn’t pretend to be good when he’s not, someone who trusts me and wants to be with me without thinking about someday breaking up, I mean, I don’t need that stupid lie told by every single couple I’ve met “I’m going to love you forever and ever and we’re going to get married and have babies” no, I’m talking about that “I don’t know what’s going to happen but today I know that I only want to be with you and that I want to spend as much time with you as possible because I like you and I care about you”. Maybe I’m asking something kind of not possible considering everything is about sex these days, girls don’t even respect themselves in anyway and boys take way too much advantage of that, pretending to be cool and stuff. I don’t wanna be cool, I wanna be happy and weird and in love.
I’m not settling though, maybe I’m that 1% of the girls that want romance and that won’t be with someone just to say “I have a hook up”.
If I keep feeling like this I think I’m going to end this thing I have and wait for someone who is better for me, that suits me and that wants the same things. I don’t want to rush things but I don’t like things going glacial either, I don’t need a relationship right away but I don’t want to be 25 and keep “seeing” him. Honestly that’s not my way to do things.
Maybe I’m just crazy.. ugh, who knows.
Ok so I decided I’ll make a new twitter account and it’s going to be the only one I’m gonna use from now on.
This is the link: https://twitter.com/caroanticev
Follow me if you want to and if I find your twitter interesting, then I’ll do the same (: